How do you trust someone who wont repair an evil deed?

someone i know has done something really terrible. They have made the situation worse by lying about it not just to me but by lying they have propoounded it to everyone they know. The only trouble is the only person who really knows what they have done is me. (correction someone else knows but it doesnt directly affect them like it did me hence i am bringing it up)

This leaves me with a dilemma. Do i still carry on trying to get them to rectify the problem or shall i just leave them to it to search out their conscience one day and admit to themselves that what was done shouldnt have to be suffered by anyone.

I was tempted to let all their friends and loved ones find out about it so that they could see them for what they truly were, but perhaps it is enough just for this person and i to know that i know that they know that what they have done and what they now do is completely and utterly wrong, and that deep down they will have to live with that mistake for the rest of their lives.

I think my anger (which is obvious here) stems from the fact that this person is not only being dishonest to their friends and loved ones but to themselves. I find it difficult to understand that they can get up in the morning and look in the mirror knowing what i know.

I find it difficult also to deal with the fact that i was their friend for many years (apparently their best friend according to them) but that they had continually lied to me and continue to lie, so that they have irrevocably lost me until further notice.

I feel sad and let down that they wont do anything about this....but if losing their friends is a low enough price to pay then so be it.

(NB interpol, what they have done is not illegal!)

My lovely new BFO (copyright B Thomas) keyboard

well here it is


have a look at this piccy if you like - they keyboard is about 5 foot 2 in length too. Although it looks like a table top keyboard its bloody heavy and as wide as an upright piano with full sized keys


when rigged up to the right amp it doesnt sound too far off being a stage concert grand in timbre etc

this is the URL

http://www.maudio.co.uk/products/en_gb/ProKeys88-main.html

theres 14 world class sounding instruments (according to the blurb anyway) and is mean to be on a par with clavinovas in the several thousand pound range

The keys are nicely weighted with a hammer action so anything from jazz to blues to bach is quite easy.

Some of the voices included organs, vibes, hammond etc

New songs and keyboards

Got a lovely M-audio prokeys 88 the other day (URL to follow) but just thought i would put this song up first for those in the know


Emily By Stephen Fretwell

You never were going to change your mind, were you, Emily?
You just sat back, took it all for you, there was nothing for me;
I didn't mean to prove that all I can do is lose

Next time that you need me, don't call me up, Emily;
I'm tired of your lies and your cheating ways with me;
And every time you go, please don't let me know

Emily, you still live inside of me;
And, Emily, you are the fire in my tree;
So if you should fall, please don't call;
And next time you write, I won't stay up all night;
'Cos Emily you, just look at you - you're a tragedy

You never were going to change you mind, were you, Emily?
You just sat back, took it all for you, and nothing was there for me;
I didn't mean to prove that all I'm good for is to lose

Emily, you still live inside of me;
And, Emily, you are the fire in my tree;
So next time you fall, please don't call;
And next time you write, I won't stay up all night;
'Cos Emily you, just look at you - you're a tragedy

You never were going to change you're mind were you, anyway